The courage to be ordinary

I've been reading The Courage to be disliked for a few months now. I love how the timing works, I found this book exactly when I needed it. A lot of the concepts in the book have been what I've come to realize during my meditations…

Grokking what it means to squander potential

Just yesterday I truly understood the words, "Squandering", or "Untapped potential" means in the context of my own life. If I am completely honest with myself knew deep down that I can do a lot more, a lot better. Yet to understand why it matters, you…

I'm afraid of being found out to be a phony

Of all my fears this one is my favorite. It pushes me to be better. It's what makes me want to tackle harder problems, especially ones just beyond my reach. Just as I was typing this I've realized the best way for me to get better…

Some stuff

I believe anything can be learned. I'd like to learn how to build stuff for myself. I'm a big fan of finding out one small thing you can do to put yourself in the right direction. So after a quick Claude check, I've come…

I think I found a great use case for tests

For the longest time I've been going back and forth when it comes to test. Mostly because most of the time I'm testing a subset of the program. But as I have been working on building a compiler, I did not even realize that I'…

What a loser.

A meditation on the author by the author written down for the author This is what I think of myself deep down. This is the foundation on which I've try to build my castle on. I think I am a worthless piece of shit. I've tried…

Pushing through | Mind & body

Yesterday was a lesson and a half. Woke up feeling like absolute garbage and anxious as hell. No idea why. I decided to try something different this time. I decided to do what I need to do anyway. It was a good decision. I'll be candid, I only…