Being outside and shit
I've been working on getting out of my own way for a while now. It's a lot harder than I imagined and especially harder to face the facts of who I am, not as something written in stone but rather a place to start. As I…
I showed up | It was the worst one yet | I've never been so proud
This stream has been the shortest I've ever done since I started streaming, yet I cannot believe that I was capable of this. When building habits I have one rule, never miss twice. The harder the habit, like streaming at 0400, the more rigidly I have to follow…
Why I love reading language references...most of it
When I start of something new or something uncomfortable, I've come to find that the reason I procrastinate is the discomfort of the unknown. I feel it in my bones, it feels like a waste of time and soon I feel like a waste of time. None of…
My progress curve looks like an upside down goat
It fills me with pride to think how much I've grown. This would have been demoralizing and heart breaking to me in the past. It has been this time too. But not enough to break me. I have the wisdom of experience, to know where the road to…
Leaving imperceptible footprints
You know how you know certain things and just as easily when you need it the most you are blind to it? That's been my last two weeks. Luckily my past self left some subtle reminders for me. I came across it, exactly when I needed it the…
Eternity is the scariest thing when doing something hard
This morning like most of my morning for the past couple of weeks I have been waking up with a dread. The thought of having to do this forever, just scares the living shit out of me. Mostly because even after a couple months of waking up at 0400, it…
I'm liking Swift | Language number four
Swift is actually quite intuitive and has a lot in common with Zig and Golang syntactically. Therefore been a lot easier to pick up than I imagined. Although I'm not a huge fan of the error handling, at least the bits I've seen so far. I&…
Carrying around a safe space at all times
Playing a sport is one of the best ways to learn new things about yourself. The best part is that it's just play. Last nights badminton did not disappoint. I've been quite intrigued by this idea of being present more often during the day. It'…