It's a tough bitch, this whole disappointment that comes despite the effort. Not just a starter problem I think, just the scale of it gets bigger. My initial reaction was consolation but then I stopped myself. Whats wrong with being disappointed at times? Does it just not mean…
It was quite gradual, for the last three months or so I've been maintaining my project on a weekly basis, it was quite hard to show up and make some improvements even though no one asked for them. Yet I have to, it is my product, it is…
I did not know there was whole theorem around it. Until just ten minutes ago, while I went on a wild goose chase of reading about our ancestors. It's pretty cool what can happen over a long enough timeline. It's called the Infinite monkey theorem and…
Sometime the best thing to do is nothing. By nothing I mean, making no decisions about whether or not to continue or to quit, to change directions or stay the course. Last week and the week before that I was in a state of what should I do as if…
There are quite a few times I feel justified to take a break, some of the time these are valid and I do feel the rest helped. But only some of the time. Most times, there is a voice in my head says, you might regret this. It turns out…
Within myself is the truth about my fears, joys, insecurities, competence, weaknesses and strengths. And many more things which words cannot articulate or I don't have the words to do so, yet. Quite often I find myself wanting to react to discomfort that I feel within myself. It…
I was going to write this tomorrow but just idea of me writing almost two hundred posts in the last two hundred days feels unreal. Considering just ten months ago I was at the darkest point of my life so far, at least one of them. How one thing can…
I'm currently on day five since I decided to stop watching YouTube. I was addicted; the withdrawal is real, and so are the upsides. Without even thinking about it, I find myself pressing ctrl + t > You... the moment I find myself bored, distracted, or overwhelmed. So far,…