It's a strange feeling, I'm doing everything I need to do, but I also find myself with time in my hands. It feels like I am not doing enough, in some areas on some days I possibly could do better. I would like to explore this more, there is a part of my mind that's trying to say that I could do better. In the past I would have choose to ignore these things and carry on pretending like there was nothing wrong. Although at this juncture of my life I'm practicing more honesty, with myself and others. Surprisingly, there are small lies that creep in without me even noticing. Probably because of all the lying in the past. Even when there are no consequences to being honest with myself, I still find that the default state is to be dishonest. I digress.
So what I am trying to say is that I would like to structure my days better. It might be time to revisit the Atomic Habits for the third time. See what it says, as it was the original inspiration for me building better habits. Now I'm thinking, they can be better. A little bit of structure would be nice. This is the first time I've been self employed, and although work has not struggled, in fact it is quite productive. It's all the other things in my life. Time with friends, training, reading and language learning. Things that I do for myself. When I have these bouts of distraction, it's all these other things that suffer. That being said I could do better with work too. There is always room for some improvement.
I've caught it early this time, I've been feeling this way since Tuesday, and I'm choosing to face it head on. I'd rather do something about it if I can. There are enough things outside of my control anyway. Once I find a solution, I'll come back with an update. That's all for today. Time for an atomic update to my atomic habits.