Not proof read. Written two minutes before going out for a couple of beers with a friend.
Not sure if I have written about this before, but this morning during the workout with my friend, she mentioned how a simple switch in mindset over the course of the last few months has simplified her relationship with her husband. It made me think of the times in my own life that I decided to step out of my own way, with help of course from my therapist. I'd like to revisit this part as often as I can. Just imagine how much further you can go in your life if you are on your side. Just the last few months I've been able to be consistent and stay focused on my goals. The approach is quite simple really, just chop wood and carry water. Without any expectations.
It's quite easy to do, but there are the odd days when doubt and fear creep in. It's not an easy task to keep working on your craft without actually really knowing if it's going to work out. After all things change all the time, why should your efforts pan out. Fear can even on occasion go so far that, you doubt everything you are doing. Which is both good and bad. The good is that, you can use the opportunity to make slight course corrections. With the general trajectory being the same.
A long time ago, I decided to master programming and let it be my source of wealth and sense of worth. Since making that decision, I've been able to stay the course for half a decade now. Which is not that long really, as I want to do this for the next twenty or thirty years and see how much of a gigachad I can become.
The hardest part really is the voluntarily go after uncomfortable things. For some reason, I love this feeling. It makes me feel like I'm growing. It still takes me a while to put consistent effort, but I've managed to do it once or twice every year for the last four years. The last six months it's accelerated, I've been able to pursue two uncomfortable things and get decently good at it. I guess overtime that gets better too.
Not sure if it comes out, but this my body and soul in joy. It feels like all my wants, desires and purpose are aligned to the bone. I know what I need to do, I don't care how long before I see any results. I've never been much motivated by the results anyway, the process is where it's at for me. Where I find the most joy.