The blog I wrote yesterday has a missing section. It's something I started to write about but then I was too impatient to provide the idea with the time it needed. So I decided against writing it at all. I'm glad I did that as I can provide all the daylight I can provide it today. Which is fucking awesome if you can see the serendipity of it all.
Why am I not able to improve at X?
There are things I want to get better at. I have an image of what it could be or what I'd think it would be like. I notice an example of someone who is that way and I want to know how I can teach myself the same thing too. There are about three to five fundamental things that I would need to work on to be able to get better at it. Now what I normally do is, I still hold on to the end result and start my attempts. Surprise, surprise motherfucker, you are not going to get there right now. Should be no surprise really but my expectations don't reflect it. I attempt to fix all the fundamentals at once in the hopes that I might get somewhere. Still expecting the same thing. It's a constant theme in a lot of my pursuits.
I've just realized that I've been harping on about something without a concrete example. Let's pick a simple one. Since I've been streaming I have come to realize that I don't communicate clearly. The way I enunciate, the pitch of my voice and how I construct my sentences. So I looked up how to improve this, and there were a few things you could do. Before I started notes on all the things I need to work on, the podcaster asked a question. Where should people start? Great question. The answer was, pick one thing. It's what's led me to go on this long side quest. Hopefully that makes a bit more sense.
So what then?
Pick one thing. It's not a revolutionary idea, quite simple. But it requires you to do some very difficult things. Set your ego aside for a moment, which is the hardest part of all. Then get better at one thing. You won't be anywhere near where your initial expectations, BUT you will be better. Now you are ready for the next thing.
That it?
Maybe. You can either decide if you really care about this thing and pick a different fundamental. You'll soon realize that there are a limited set of things you can get better at because to really get good at things it takes time and effort. There are no shortcuts. I was quite relieved once I found this out. Mostly because I know what it is that I want to get good at. I've let everything else...just go.
The irony or the funny thing is that by being able to commit to a handful of things I'm going all in. Quite funny if you think about it really. So in a way you go all in by picking the smallest piece of the puzzle and finding out where it fits in this portrait of existence that you call life.