Of all my fears this one is my favorite. It pushes me to be better. It's what makes me want to tackle harder problems, especially ones just beyond my reach. Just as I was typing this I've realized the best way for me to get better…
I believe anything can be learned. I'd like to learn how to build stuff for myself. I'm a big fan of finding out one small thing you can do to put yourself in the right direction. So after a quick Claude check, I've come…
For the longest time I've been going back and forth when it comes to test. Mostly because most of the time I'm testing a subset of the program. But as I have been working on building a compiler, I did not even realize that I'…
A meditation on the author by the author written down for the author This is what I think of myself deep down. This is the foundation on which I've try to build my castle on. I think I am a worthless piece of shit. I've tried…
Yesterday was a lesson and a half. Woke up feeling like absolute garbage and anxious as hell. No idea why. I decided to try something different this time. I decided to do what I need to do anyway. It was a good decision. I'll be candid, I only…
I'll be honest today has been filthy and it's only 0640 is the fucking morning. Yet I'm taking on a new challenge. To show up despite it. A day when I absolutely don't feel like doing anything. I want to see if…
Some lessons in life just take a lot of tries to get through my thick head. It's fucking hilarious. This morning I was thinking why is it so hard to act. To do the things I want to do. Yea, you heard that right, things I want to…
It all started on Monday. Which started out fucking awesome to be honest. It was all fine till I decided to Engineer a problem. Strangely enough it's something I've come to grips with in the past and have a solid understanding of why it happens and…