Yesterday was a lesson and a half. Woke up feeling like absolute garbage and anxious as hell. No idea why. I decided to try something different this time. I decided to do what I need to do anyway. It was a good decision. I'll be candid, I only did the bare minimum of what I could do, the quality was not the greatest but I managed to do it. I did everything that was on my daily checklist, well almost...I missed a couple but the rest were done. Even managed to have a great workout despite not wanting to be there. The wild part of all that was that by around mid-day I started to be in a good mood. I might even go as far as to say that it might have been the act of sticking with it when I least wanted to that sort of fueled me out of the garbage truck of a state I was in when I woke up.
It might sound silly to even speak of this but for me this is a big deal. I'm looking at you future self. If you have an inkling of an idea where I was just a year ago, well you do, you were there. This is fucking awesome. I've always wanted to feel unstoppable. Yesterday I got a slight taste of it. Wisdom is action, you can know a thing but unless you act on it, it's just information. Strangely I'm looking opportunities to test out my new mental strength.
Curiosity is my gift I'd say, above all else. I get strange ideas like this from time to time that come from a place of curiosity. I just wanted to know what would happen. Streaming was the biggest challenge as it was the height of the ill mood. It felt like a knife piercing through my chest the whole time but I decided to stick with it. At minute five I was checking the time, but somehow I managed to do almost an hour. Somehow after streaming the rest did not seem as hard.
Peak week
In some workout related news, my next PR peak is going really well. My squats are feeling stronger and I think in about four weeks or so I should be ready to attempt my next Squat PR. The goal is 175Kg for the back squat and 150 or 155Kg for the front squat. It's going to be a 10-15Kg PR jump for the front squat but I missed the front squat PR opportunity during the last peak. Good times. Training does feel a lot harder now as the workouts now consists of my PR's from last year. Which is kinda cool when I think about it. So I'm not going to complain about that.
I've also been looking at some videos of squat clean techniques and turns out I have a lot of work to do. So I'll be incorporating that during the week too. I have some free slots in my training week and have been wondering for a while around what I would like to work on. Now I know.