Writing is a lot of fun, at least it can be. Just mixing and matching words together, or to be completely honest about something. What's better is that no one really cares or reads anymore. You can know everything about me from my blogs—my darkest secrets and weaknesses. Why would I want them to be online? Simply because the act of writing itself helps me face these things out in the open. They don't really need to be online, but it helps to go back and read them. There's something about letting your thoughts free from your head onto the screen through the spine. Doesn't make them interesting or entertaining, but why give a flying fuck about making things entertaining? There are enough people trying to do that already. I've surrendered from that race, forfeited the challenge, admitted defeat. It's fucking awesome, and the freedom is toxic.
It's taken some time to be able to free myself to do exactly what I want to do. This was especially the challenge with streaming. What I stream is not very entertaining—even I don't watch it. But that's not at all why I do it. I realized when I stream, I tend to follow through on my projects to completion over long periods of time—I'm talking months, or with the current one, maybe a year. That's exactly what I wanted: to become better at programming. It was never to entertain. I myself don't watch any programming streams. I pop in after my stream just to see what's going on, but otherwise I don't really spend too much time there. The irony is that I don't even actively watch Twitch myself. It also helps that I don't want to make any money from my blog or stream. If I do, it'll be a bloody bonus, but apart from that, the thought never even entered my mind. I'm glad for it. Why? Mainly because it's just fun. It's one of the few things I do during my day that I want nothing out of. Sure, I check how many subscribers I have on YouTube now and again—that's kinda fun too, to watch the numbers go up.
So there we go. The conclusion would be if there was one. To be honest, this would be the first time there was a conclusion. Psych.