I believe anything can be learned. I'd like to learn how to build stuff for myself. I'm a big fan of finding out one small thing you can do to put yourself in the right direction. So after a quick Claude check, I've come back with keeping a Friction log. I've had a similar idea before, forgot to follow through it. It's been quite successful. The last entry was that I was doing the same things when setting up new projects and I found it quite annoying to have to do it again over and over. Luckily my past self started this off for me with a shell script which only needed about three new lines of code. I'd like to do more of this. As I am close to finishing my compiler the itch to have something new to build is taking over. I've found this ray tracing over the weekend pdf. It looks quite cool. I've always wanted to know how to build visual things from scratch just with code.
Low self control
The last three days were total write offs for me, after spending all of my Friday evening and Saturday morning drinking. It turns out that I have really low self control. I did know this about myself. I have lived with myself for the last thirty years after all. What I find works best is to totally avoid scenarios that involve drinking. Yea ground breaking I know. There is only one person in my life who likes going out drinking and I'm afraid I'm going to have to let him go. It's a waste of money and time. When I was younger I would be good to go in twenty four hours but this time it's taken forty eight. At this point of time in my life I rather not waste any of it. I'm enjoying being in the present far too much.
Having kids
I love DHH and quite agree with quite few of his takes. Ironically none of them related to Ruby or Rails. This one is no exception. I can speak from the perspective of someone who's always wanted kids, then didn't want them and now wants them again.
I've always wanted kids from my teenage years. Always wanted to be a Father. Mostly because our parents weren't around very much when I grew up. It's not a complaint. They did what they had to do. Around when I was in my mid-twenties I thought I found the girl and was getting excited at the prospect of having kids. It's also the time I decided to switch careers and worked the hardest I ever had in a single year. Just the idea of being one step closer to having kids made me more motivated that I have ever been. But then the girl thought otherwise. I was heartbroken. Decided never to fall in love again or to have kids. It's been a couple or more years since then. I've realized it was only me avoiding pain. Pain is inevitable and the avoidance of pain is also pain.
It took a lot of work for me to be back to place where I'm looking forward to being a father again. I'm yet to find the mother of my kids but this already is a big step for me. Only if you knew where I was a year ago. It's taken a lot of work but I'm glad for myself for having done it. I'm still far from being perfect but I'm ready for someone else to see my imperfections. And I can't wait to have kids. Can't wait for them to meet my cats too. That's all I have to say about that.