Within myself is the truth about my fears, joys, insecurities, competence, weaknesses and strengths. And many more things which words cannot articulate or I don't have the words to do so, yet. Quite often I find myself wanting to react to discomfort that I feel within myself. It…
I was going to write this tomorrow but just idea of me writing almost two hundred posts in the last two hundred days feels unreal. Considering just ten months ago I was at the darkest point of my life so far, at least one of them. How one thing can…
I've been pondering resilience and removing things from my life that make the important things seem harder—like deciding to not watch YouTube ever. It might seem harmless, but it is far from it. It's been less than a week, so it's too early…
A couple of days ago, I made the decision to do something about my constant need for distraction and its subsequent effects on my inability to focus and do hard things for long periods of time. The approach to dealing with this bad habit is not novel, but it has…
When I decided that I wanted to be a programmer, way back when I was still a dive instructor, totally dissatisfied with life. I knew that I had to commit to this thing. Not stop till I put my foot in the door. For the next year that's…
It's been lingering in my head for the last few months. I've been wondering why, despite loving what I do, getting started or spending hours on a task without being distracted has been quite the challenge. At any given moment, my mind starts to look for…
You know how people can detect bullshit, danger, opportunity, rats, and cheesecake from a mile away? I think I've developed one to detect shortcuts. I've had the opportunity to take a few over the years, mostly due to my impatience. I've tried quite a…
There have been a few moments in my life where I have hit rock bottom; it turns out you can hit it multiple times. There are even levels to it. It's a nice visit when I'm there—always, not in the moment, but after like a…