Sometime the best thing to do is nothing. By nothing I mean, making no decisions about whether or not to continue or to quit, to change directions or stay the course. Last week and the week before that I was in a state of what should I do as if me making a decision was life or death. Turns out letting it simmer or to let Tim cook is all it needed. The strange thing is I only walked away from the decision not the work. I've been working harder than ever, and actually doing the hard things, not just spending more hours. In a strange way I'm starting the like it, who knew that somewhere within me was a masochist just waiting to be let loose. The fear of the unknown has turned into less fear. My advantage is a deep love for the process. I enjoy the journey far too much, almost to fault where I loose sight of the destination sometimes. I've been quite honest about my shortcoming, maybe even too honest to some and so I must also be honest about my strengths.
Speaking of strengths, it's peek week. Peek week a time in your training where you just feel like a God, compared to your previous self. This should be perfect, in a week and a half I'll turn 32. I'd like to gift myself the strongest version of myself. My aim is a back squat of 170 maybe even 175 Kg, it feels possible. And a front squat of 150 or 155 Kg. Last week I tried the weight on, it felt possible, strangely 160 Kg felt quite possible on the front squat too. Those are some insane numbers for me. It might not happen on cue, but it's coming, I can feel it.
Trying Cursor
Yes, I finally did it. I've joined the dark side. Not really. I was thinking the other day how can I afford an employee and then I realized till I can I can pay for Cursor. Don't get me wrong I'm hiring someone the moment I can. The levers are longer with tools like this. It's not all sunshine and rainbows though. Maybe my expectations were too high. I let it get everything setup, get all the boilerplate in place. It's really good at this as I'm consistent with the way I build things, I provide it a context and then it's off. I do find I have to still do a lot of the thinking, reading the docs etc, because some of the AI suggestions are just crazy. I would say I'm liking it, it is saving me a lot of time. At the same time I would say, it's also because I've spent a lot of time getting good at my craft, I am reviewing a lot of code and re-writing a lot of it still.
Also, I still don't use any AI on my streams. It's where I explore and learn new things. For that matter I don't even use any libraries. The goal there is to build things from scratch. The goal is not to be productive but to be better at the craft I so dearly love. So trying using Cursor for work stuff or my software where building things fast is important, I'd say I don't really mind letting the AI do a lot of the work. Mostly since, there is a lot of small things that need doing, which is great because it frees me up to be able to explore new features and ideas.
Also, it's not as awful or great as the Internet would like you to believe it to be. It's okay, gets the job done. Which is all I need. Make your own mind. And no I don't think it's coming after any jobs any time soon.
As long as you actively work on getting better and can draw a distinction between when you need to be productive and when you need to grind it out in the muck and the dirt. You should be okay. If are unsure if you can make this distinction, just keep the use to a minimum and specific questions. That's all the advice I have on that subject. I don't really like to talk about AI much, there is enough garbage on the subject and some gold on how to deal with what's going on.