Since I started streaming almost a month ago, today was by far the best day so far. I had forgotten how good it feels to have conversations with people interested in similar things as you. The last few minutes of the stream were spent just chatting with a couple of generous people, one of whom has been helping me a lot in my embedded programming journey.
Facing this fear of programming in front of people has been one of the most rewarding experiences this year so far, among all the other fears I've decided to face this year. It's been a totally different mindset shift, and I can't wait to stream again. I've been streaming almost every day for the past month, and it has been one of the most rewarding things I've been doing. The strange thing is that I loved it even before anyone showed up to have a chat. I'm getting quite addicted to it, and I love it. It is a lot of fun. Even a few months ago, I would have never thought I'd be saying those words.
People actually do read some of this
I was totally surprised when someone came onto the stream after reading one of my older posts about programming without autocomplete. That made my day. I'm glad I started writing more freely about anything and everything. The strange thing is that when you do things without really caring about what others think, you get appreciation from all the other people who care about what you say. It has just opened my mind to a whole different perspective. It's only 0700, and I'm having the best day.
If you are one of the few people who do read what I say, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Doing things as if no one is watching
It's a small change in perspective that has come about in the last few months. I realized no one actually reads what I write, so why not write exactly what I want to say as I want to say it. Zero fucks given. The vastness of the Internet is actually an advantage. Wonder how much of it I can translate to everyday life. I guess a simple thing as writing a blog like no one cares is a low risk way of practicing it. It can help in becoming more genuine. Consider it as facing the level one demon, before we go on to the other levels.