It's what I've always felt right about. Social media does not suit me at all. So I'm not on it at all. But if it's something you enjoy, there is definitely a lot of value in it. This article is from the perspective of a person who struggles with social media. That being said, I'm still considering streaming. Just haven't made my mind yet.
The other reason I'm not on social media is that, I like the way I do things and I prefer to come to my own conclusions. There was a point when I cared about what the best, fastest or the most performant was. Turns out I've never needed them. If Ruby can scale to billions of users, you can really use anything you want. The way I do things, work. I deliver on time and the outcome is a lot less buggy.
Meat
Now, to the title. I gravitate towards the doing over the talking about what it. I'm working on it. For the most parts, I love the process of getting better slowly over time. Doing things slightly uncomfortable and seeing the reward somewhere down the line. It's probably why I enjoy the pursuit of excellence, at the same time praying I never get there. Since deciding what I want to spend my time on, it's been really straightforward to get better at it. Success comes at a price though, it can make you comfortable if not kept in check. Luckily my internal signals kept shouting at me saying, we have veered off. Just like an airplane yelling, "Pull up, pull up, terrain". I got even luckier, I got fired.
Lucky? Yes extremely. It gave me the time to see how I had veered off, more importantly how to get back on track. I feel aligned, like I'm living like I was meant to. Doing what I was designed for. My wants and desires have aligned. And I'm not letting go.
Goodbye 2024
You have been kind to me. Thank you for showing me the truth I needed to see. It was uncomfortable, scary and painful. True kindness hurts. Just like the truth, but it helps you grow. Become more resilient. I'm not afraid of shit hitting the fan, at least not as much as I used to. I lost everything and I'm still here. It was an underlying fear that I always carried. It's no longer there.
The last year and a half has made me more resilient than I have ever been and a lot more fearless. I wouldn't be the man I am today without this wonderful experience.