Maybe a month or two ago I got quite confident at my abilities to face my fears and decided to step it up a notch. So I asked God to show me all of my fears. Big mistake. Turns out if you want to see your shortcomings God responds pretty…
No matter how much fun it is or how much joy the outcome brings, showing up is still a right pain in the arse. It's something I know but still need reminding of. After what felt like an eternity, I've finally got sick of me being…
Lately I've been really enjoying programming quite a lot. It feels like the early days where it was all I did. Even if the frequency is not the same, I'm loving every minute of it. Especially since the last year or two I had fallen out…
This one took me a week combing through docs watching others do it to figure this out. So maybe someone else would find a need for this. Although the API is a bit odd, it's wild to think that this API is from the 1980's and…
On paper it sounded like just the challenge I needed. To follow handmade hero on Linux with Zig. It made no sense for me to follow handmade hero as it was because I know myself too well. If there is a shortcut I'll take it. Using Zig and…
The movies and social media have distorted reality. Or maybe I have distorted expectations from those stories. In all honesty, rebuilding yourself from the ashes of yourself looks as pathetic and unsexy from the outside as it can get. The correction of that expectation has done me great good. In…
I know because the last couple of weeks I've been more distracted than I have been for a long time. I don't even have the excuse of having too much free time. It just comes down to admitting that I'm addicted to dopamine. Something…
Learning is exhilarating. Not something I thought I would ever say because I never enjoyed learning for as long as I can remember. Until I was twenty-seven when I discovered programming. Prior to that, the only time I can imagine enjoying learning was doing Calculus questions when in school. Only…