200th Post | 186 of them in the last 200 odd days

I was going to write this tomorrow but just idea of me writing almost two hundred posts in the last two hundred days feels unreal. Considering just ten months ago I was at the darkest point of my life so far, at least one of them. How one thing can…

Expanding resilience; a little bit at a time

I've been pondering resilience and removing things from my life that make the important things seem harder—like deciding to not watch YouTube ever. It might seem harmless, but it is far from it. It's been less than a week, so it's too early…

Genius or lunacy? I think lunacy 😂

A couple of days ago, I made the decision to do something about my constant need for distraction and its subsequent effects on my inability to focus and do hard things for long periods of time. The approach to dealing with this bad habit is not novel, but it has…

Am I amusing myself to death?

It's been lingering in my head for the last few months. I've been wondering why, despite loving what I do, getting started or spending hours on a task without being distracted has been quite the challenge. At any given moment, my mind starts to look for…

Pain == limitless motivation

There have been a few moments in my life where I have hit rock bottom; it turns out you can hit it multiple times. There are even levels to it. It's a nice visit when I'm there—always, not in the moment, but after like a…

Better than before is a terrible statement

Compared to where I was a year ago I'm in a much better position but I'm realizing that it's not enough. First of all that is not the comparison to make. Firstly the focus is shifted to something in the past and secondly there…