A couple of days ago, I made the decision to do something about my constant need for distraction and its subsequent effects on my inability to focus and do hard things for long periods of time. The approach to dealing with this bad habit is not novel, but it has…
When I decided that I wanted to be a programmer, way back when I was still a dive instructor, totally dissatisfied with life. I knew that I had to commit to this thing. Not stop till I put my foot in the door. For the next year that's…
It's been lingering in my head for the last few months. I've been wondering why, despite loving what I do, getting started or spending hours on a task without being distracted has been quite the challenge. At any given moment, my mind starts to look for…
You know how people can detect bullshit, danger, opportunity, rats, and cheesecake from a mile away? I think I've developed one to detect shortcuts. I've had the opportunity to take a few over the years, mostly due to my impatience. I've tried quite a…
There have been a few moments in my life where I have hit rock bottom; it turns out you can hit it multiple times. There are even levels to it. It's a nice visit when I'm there—always, not in the moment, but after like a…
Compared to where I was a year ago I'm in a much better position but I'm realizing that it's not enough. First of all that is not the comparison to make. Firstly the focus is shifted to something in the past and secondly there…
There is a common theme with discomfort, at least with the things that I find uncomfortable, especially the things I know, deep down, I should be facing. What are some of these things for me? Talking to a stranger, specifically a stranger of the opposite sex whom I find attractive;…
I've heard this quite a lot of times: "Don't hate the player, hate the game." You are the player, but what is the game? It seems justified to hate it, but what is "it"? Is it the ridiculousness of having to do…