Yesterday was a lesson and a half. Woke up feeling like absolute garbage and anxious as hell. No idea why. I decided to try something different this time. I decided to do what I need to do anyway. It was a good decision. I'll be candid, I only…
I'll be honest today has been filthy and it's only 0640 is the fucking morning. Yet I'm taking on a new challenge. To show up despite it. A day when I absolutely don't feel like doing anything. I want to see if…
Some lessons in life just take a lot of tries to get through my thick head. It's fucking hilarious. This morning I was thinking why is it so hard to act. To do the things I want to do. Yea, you heard that right, things I want to…
It all started on Monday. Which started out fucking awesome to be honest. It was all fine till I decided to Engineer a problem. Strangely enough it's something I've come to grips with in the past and have a solid understanding of why it happens and…
Disclaimer for anyone else reading this. Most of these ramblings I write to help me think through things, an observation I made, or just an insight I've had. I write these as a reminder or notes to myself in the future. In case I loose my way. These…
Most life I feel like is just traveling. We're always going somewhere, away from who we are and once we get far enough back to who we are. It's not a complaint, it's just an observation. Yet this in between stage is the one…
I'm a fairly new programmer as I've only been doing this for about five or so years now. Which in my book is still just early phases of programming. I'm still a baby when it comes to programming. So take what I say with…
Believe it or not, I'm scared of being happy. It's a belief that without the pain or discomfort I will loose my drive to achieve the things that I want to. When I type this out, it sounds fucking insane. Yet it is true. It'…