Facing new unknowns
Oddly enough, I was in no state of mind to do anything, but out of the blue I felt like wanting to do something. All I needed to do was sit down, fuck around a bit, open up the terminal and then all of a sudden I was on my…
Back after a break
Not really a planned break, but it sort of just happened. Since last Wednesday I've been feeling like I want to let loose. By that I mean going to bed later and sleeping in and not training for a few days. It also meant, I did almost no…
Time to be patient
One of the most consistent pattern in my life has been not knowing what to do next. I have a general direction I want to walk in but that's about it. It is and has been software for the last five years. Each year, I find myself yearning…
Lets try again
Don't know how by every time I turn my back for a minute, I find myself turning to AI for everything. The truth is though, if there is an easier way I'll take it, but not without it eating away at me slowly. I know it&…
When you don't know where you are going, any path will get you there
I read about this Pianist a long long time ago, I often think about what he said. It was mainly to do with inspiration and not waiting for one. Just sit down and play, regardless of how abstract the work. A blue collar work ethic has been missing from my…
Staying focused
This might just be a personal observation, but I get the feeling it's important to stay true to what it is that you want to do and trusting that mastery will bear fruits. It's quite easy to stray from it over the course of years. For…
Fear is a constant
Sometimes it feels like fear is something to overcome, in reality it's a constant shadow that only dims down when your light is bright. But there are always those days where the your light fades and fear becomes clear as day. It never actually left, don't…
Turns out I don't know what I want to do next 😅
I got prematurely excited about making a database, once I started reading through the material, I found myself much less excited about it. Mainly because I have done it before, although it was more network focused. There are some interesting concepts but I did not like the way the process…